Birthing to the Ethers

As the Age of Pisces ends, the water in which the fish has been swimming for two thousand years will be emptied out of the jug (as the Water Bearer age begins) so that the fish must, as in other corresponding evolutionary times, find a new way to live through a creative adaption that is more self-dependent.

I see a clear correlation here: I lose my job, my father dies and two safety nets are gone...both of them waters in which I swam that supported me and upon which I was dependent.

My goal now: to adapt to the new world in such a way that I am reliant only upon my own wellspring of resources.

The development of a healthy person in the realm of social interaction will always lead away from dependence upon using others' energy through manipulation to a self-reliance that finds its own innate energy source within.

I have a terrific store of accomplished works that I can harvest now through the internet in a way to generate income. I am unlimited in creativity so that once this new generation is in place the opportunity to expand it, and in the process, serve the planet will provide endless support.

Q: So how does the water mammal learn to walk on land?

A: Wrong question. The water being becomes a sky being.

A New Mirror

House-sitting last weekend and shaving in an unfamiliar bathroom and the light is very different in there than anywhere else I have ever been looking at myself in a mirror... at my apartment there are two little lightbulbs on either side illuminating the front of my face so I see it sculpted in a certain way and generally always perceive myself from that point of view. But in new environs with the skylight overhead and a slightly different angle of sidelighting, the mirror shows to me an entirely new perspective... so while I was shaving away and not paying particular attention I was blown away when suddenly out of nowhere I saw my father's face looking back at me. It was unmistakable.

All other responses aside it has had the most piercingly effective way of removing all otherness from him that I ordinarily use to facilitate blaming / disappointment / regret, which has the effect of making me immediately and solely responsible and accountable.

Who could have foreseen such a simple and elegant clue? I have been for many months involved in an intensive search for a key to unlock my own vast potential and here it was shown to me so clearly how much I hold other people responsible for shortcomings and limitations in my experience.

Portfolio @ 2011

Onalaska's Tower

When the word Tower appears in mythology it usually indicates some sort of inflexible MENTAL CONSTRUCT. Think of the TOWER tarot card; which indicates that change is occurring and in order to adapt to it the rigid structure of expectation must be dismantled.

The question that Onalaska poses is simple: that of Hamlet; To be or not to be. Whether 'tis simpler to end life than to re-orient to a new paradigm. In her case it was the end of the tribal/wilderness empire and the onset of Euro/exploitation. She clung to the disappearing reality to the point of disappearing herself.

Perhaps the iconic image of her is not hurling off the cliff but rather poised at the edge. That is what gives it resonance right now- 2011; we are on the edge. The new world is coming and a certain (perhaps uncomfortable) adaptation is required.

There is contained in this iconography a mighty paradox: the leap. At the threshold a leap often represents the unknowing step into faith: a courageous affirmation of willingness to leave the known. In her case the leap was to the end of her life. It is a romantic notion to die for your principles. To take your child with you rather than let it live a life you cannot fathom.

Her hopes were dashed
on the rocks below.


But the image of her hurling to her demise may not represent a failure at all, or a succumbing: it could well be Dying to the Self which is a choice and represents empowerment.

Certainly if our next evolutionary leap as a species is to an interconnectedness of mind & will & spirit then the abdication of one's personal ego/will is a vital element of each individual's evolution. Her leap is not a tragedy at all, but an advanced form of development.