Sunday, December 16, 2012

Attentive Birds

IN 1999 I got really sick, and during the aftermonths in coming to an understanding of the experience I was studying the plagues of the Middle Ages and discovered this ingenious method they had of divining health… with a goldfinch. The bird was carried into the sickroom and held in front of the patient, and if it looked him in the eye he would live. If it refused to look at him he was as good as gone.



In the hospital I had been drawing mandalas to keep focused in this world, but once I came across finch therapy I started painting icons of various saints and personages holding finches. And all of those finches were staring right at me.



Two of them: my friend Dwight (1963-1989) with Finch, and Death With Finch.

Thursday, December 13, 2012

Shrines Along the Road

I always think about George Biddle, a local artist whose phenomenal work brought him to the brink of art fame back in the 50s, but then he died suddenly and almost all of his terrific pieces spent the next 50 years in his widow's closet, unseen by the world.


Not to compare myself to him, but today I have the opportunity, here in this forum on the internet, to make sure somebody other than myself has seen this stuff… and in my lifetime. None of it is of great consequence, but it all had a depth of meaning to me when I created it and so there is a likelihood that the work might resonate with someone else as well.



Painting has always been the way I can own the resolutions of my soul, so in many ways what anyone else thinks of it doesn't really speak much to its validity, but we are all of us finding our way through to some comprehension, and what makes the deepest sense is always wordless, and sometimes imaginal, symbolic, pictorial. These paintings, while maybe decorative, and often intended as illustrations for books or films, are all illustrations, in the largest sense, of some state of soul, and some process of seeking.

Monday, December 3, 2012

The Seeds

One day in a moment of clarity Rick Sowash said to me "Why study Johnny Appleseed when you can be Johnny Appleseed..." and what he hit in his moment of yearning was the very essence of the issue: focusing on the past instead of the present.

John Chapman lived on the pristine uncharted wilderness frontier of America and the salient fame of his story comes from that barefoot and fearless walking into the unknown to sew the seeds of the coming society.


We have no such wooded wilderness anymore, and the concept of wandering around in the primal forests, while having a nostalgic appeal, is not a viable reality.

We never lack for a frontier, however, in any historic time or place. In the 1920s Louis Bromfield wrote, "Life is hard for our children. It isn't as simple as it was for us. Their grandfathers were pioneers and the same blood runs in their veins, only they haven't a frontier any longer. They stand... these children of ours, with their backs toward this rough-hewn middle west and their faces set toward Europe and the East and they belong to neither. They are lost somewhere between."


Bromfield's time was of the 'lost generation' and they found their identity in the expatriate world of Paris, and in exploring the old country. While it had a certain sexy marketability and glamour, it was not really a forging into a new world... not in the sense of Chapman's frontier.


In our time there is a very clear and vital new world that is, in its own way, analogous to the untouched frontier of John Chapman's time. This unexplored territory exists not in the limited physical world outdoors, but in the infinite and invisible soul we access inside our selves. It affords the possibility of stepping into the next paradigm of consciousness by simply closing off the external world, and immersing oneself into the vast untouched frontier of energy and light and will in the self's interior.


In the most vital and authentic sense, the seeds we plant in this new world -just like John Chapman- prepare the way for the society to follow.

Sunday, November 18, 2012

The Credits

We went to see James Bond yesterday and I had a revelation as to why they have all those endless credits at the end... it's to give you time to gather your shattered wits so you don't have to go out and look at the daylight with tears streaming down your face.  It is the grace period they provide, filled with artificial distraction, so you can regain your quiet breath and poise in the dark free from scrutiny.  People who leave before the credits are untethered to their souls and do not require a period of re-entry to the interactive world.

Monday, September 5, 2011

Birthing to the Ethers

As the Age of Pisces ends, the water in which the fish has been swimming for two thousand years will be emptied out of the jug (as the Water Bearer age begins) so that the fish must, as in other corresponding evolutionary times, find a new way to live through a creative adaption that is more self-dependent.

I see a clear correlation here: I lose my job, my father dies and two safety nets are gone...both of them waters in which I swam that supported me and upon which I was dependent.





My goal now: to adapt to the new world in such a way that I am reliant only upon my own wellspring of resources.

The development of a healthy person in the realm of social interaction will always lead away from dependence upon using others' energy through manipulation to a self-reliance that finds its own innate energy source within.

I have a terrific store of accomplished works that I can harvest now through the internet in a way to generate income. I am unlimited in creativity so that once this new generation is in place the opportunity to expand it, and in the process, serve the planet will provide endless support.

Q: So how does the water mammal learn to walk on land?

A: Wrong question. The water being becomes a sky being.



Thursday, June 23, 2011

A New Mirror

House-sitting last weekend and shaving in an unfamiliar bathroom and the light is very different in there than anywhere else I have ever been looking at myself in a mirror... at my apartment there are two little lightbulbs on either side illuminating the front of my face so I see it sculpted in a certain way and generally always perceive myself from that point of view. But in new environs with the skylight overhead and a slightly different angle of sidelighting, the mirror shows to me an entirely new perspective... so while I was shaving away and not paying particular attention I was blown away when suddenly out of nowhere I saw my father's face looking back at me. It was unmistakable.

All other responses aside it has had the most piercingly effective way of removing all otherness from him that I ordinarily use to facilitate blaming / disappointment / regret, which has the effect of making me immediately and solely responsible and accountable.

Who could have foreseen such a simple and elegant clue? I have been for many months involved in an intensive search for a key to unlock my own vast potential and here it was shown to me so clearly how much I hold other people responsible for shortcomings and limitations in my experience.

Wednesday, June 1, 2011